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Monday, May 22, 2006

*Geline*

To all pemers.........
can ur dun read tis post until we had meet each other on mon?????
Pls read it onli after mon nite......
i realli mean it......

Hi pemers......
Maybe this is the last time i will address all of ur as pemers....
hehe....
and tis may be the last time i blog.....

Now im thinking about all the things we had gone thru together....
It all started from the craze abt F4.....
the long queue at bishan for f4.....
the long queue at suntec fr zai zai..... crying and laughing......
the most cleverest queue for vaness at ps delifrance......

then we began to study together at lot one mac....
the crazy time we had when we were laughing loudly in the middle of mac as if no one else were beside us......
when we were tired of books, we would jus pack our bags and go shopping or k box......
when the ppl of mac cant stand us.....
we moved to teck whye mac.....
i remembered tt it was at teck whye mac tt i proposed an idea.....
the idea of combining perfect moment(ying, geok, ting, yu) and eternity (sam, ying and me).....
and we all thought tt the idea was gd.... we were all thinking abt the same thing but no one said it out.....
however.... it was at lot one mac tt we decided to name ourselves PEM (perfectly eternal moment)......
wat a silly way to combine the names.....
then we started to do our recording...... the first song tt we recorded as a group of six is ji de yao wang ji......
den..... we somehow got a chance to go to cruise together.....
however.... jus at tt moment..... we had an argument with yu.....
in the end..... we went to cruise as five only.......
soon...... yu left us..... and pem became a group of five ppl......

After tt..... we began our recordings..... gei wo duo yi dian....ai wo de zi ge.... ming zhong zhu ding..... etc.....
we even started to write our own songs..... wu ge ren xing zou.... pem.... etc.....
even the show xia yi zhan tian hou's theme song became our song too.....

During jc time.....
we somehow lost a bit of contact even though some of us were in the same sch....
we had our own new frens...... and we no longer study together everyday.....
we din go to mac le.....
the memories tt we shared become lesser and lesser.....

after jc.....
ting went to macau......
jus b4 tt.....
we decided to give up our dream.....
the dream tt we believed in and the goal tt we always worked towards to.......
we gave it up.....
gave it up thoroughly.....
recordings are no longer necessary and important.....
not anymore....

however.......
we started our recording again when we decided to join impressario and talent quest......
we started the whole cycle all over again.....
we try to make time for recordings..... meetings..... discussions......
the bonding between us is back again......
haha.....
how i missed the feeling of us working towards a same goal.....

after the competition....
we are scattered again......
at tt moment.....
she fell out of love.......
we met up with each other almost everyday....
everynite.... although there were lessons the next day.....
however.....
when she met a new guy.....
we din contact each other for 2 months.....
when tt happened.....
i was so disappointed.....
on 1st may..... my final glimpse of hope was shattered when she insisted to bring her bf over.....
i try to tink of excuses and reasons for her to bring him over......
but to my disappointment.......
i cant find any.....
not a single one.....
im so utterly disappointed when i felt tt my 11 years of frenship seems so minute when compared to the few months of romance they shared......
she never failed to make me feel as if im jus an ordinary fren.....
i dunno how she met this guy....
i dunno how long they have been together.....
i dunno how's her work....
i dunno how's her relationship with her mother......
i dunno everything abt her.....
im realli disappointed...... very disappointed......
wat kind of frenship we have when i dunno anything abt her and she din noe anything abt me????
when ppl tell me to tok to u.....
my immediate reply is "
no use...... she will only nod her head or shake her head...... this is not an effective communication...... im telling her what i feel and i dunno how she feels..... i dun even noe whether she agrees with me or not......"
when ppl asks me to gif her another chance......
somehow.....
deep down in my heart......
im not willing to......
our frenship changed so much tt i dun even recognised it......
how i wished we can go back to the past.....
the happy and cheerful memories we shared in the past.....
but.......
it is not possible......
no longer possible.....
haiz.....
the funny thing is...... how cum i dun feel pity at all.....
a 11 years of frenship.....
and im gg to end it myself in a few hours time.....
maybe..... maybe.......
im jus too disappointed...... jus too disappointed......
or maybe too sad....... tt i dun even bother to shed a tear over it at all........
u r not a bad fren..... u do care abt me.... always......
but the way u put ur bf as ur utmost priority......
i realli cant understand........
sad to say.....
u dun realli need me as ur fren......
im jus an acquintance......
a normal acquintance.......

she is always a blur queen......
not streetwise at alll.......
she din think of consequences everytime.....
always went clubbing...... din even think of the dangers......
i haf tried to tok to her several times...... but to no avail.....
somehow.....
she cant understand what im trying to say..... what i really mean......
but..... she had been a great listener during the lrt rides.....
b4 she went to macau......
we told her tt our dream wun last long.....
i feel tt we will all change when she came back,.....
and tis realli happened.....
maybe she din feel it.....
but i do.....
i dunno wat to tok to her after she came back......
we cant tok happily together again.....
den she got herself a bf.....
once again......
on 1st may......
the bf was with us without any prior notice.....
den she was the first to go off.....
and she went out with her bf after dinner..... on pem's bdae.......
pem's bdae is no longer impt anymore.......
we jus had a simple dinner with two xtra ppl.....
dun telll me tt i dun understand how ur feel cos i dun ever have a bf......
but i can tell ur this........
even if i have a bf......
i wun bring them to a dinner tt is used to celebrate pem's bdae......
pem's 4 years old bdae..... a special day tt is set jus for the 5 of us......
we purposely choose labour day so tt no one will be studying and working on tt dae......
however...... tis is not the case.....
i always tot tt our group is special......
a special group tt we noe each other very well......
however...... i was wrong..... utterly wrong.....
tt is jus my wishful part of thinking......
my own.... personal.... thinking onli.......
maybe u tink we are special..... and i can feel tt we r special to u......
but...... we have all changed.......
we are moving in a different direction......
in a direction tt our paths will never cross again......

i always have arguments with her when we tok abt christian stuff.....
therefore..... i try not to tok abt it....
and i feel tt it works.....
we din argue for ver long time le.....
u haf always been a calm and clear-minded person......
if u had not been so devoted in ur religion.......
put lesser burden on ur shoulder......
u will haf more time for us and urself......
everyone gets to choose their own path.....
if u r happy in ur current path.....
continue with it...... im always behind u......
maybe...... one day...... i might join ur path too.....
no one noes......

last but not least......
i would like to say sorry to her.....
she is always the one getting scolded by me......
to tolerate the unreasonable side of me.....
and i mus say thanks to her too.....
she makes me feel tt im so fortunate to haf such a great fren like her......
actualli..... during jc...... i wrote her a letter to end our frenship due to some arguments.....
i kept the letter by my side for 2 days......
in the end...... i decide to throw it away......
a lot of arguments with her.....
i can realli erase it from my memory..... and never take it to heart again.........
she realli cares abt a fren.....
i cant see the selfish side of her......
i can only c the emotional side..... the crying side......
the laughter she make even though she feels sad.....
if im always teasing u which is making u angry....and i dunno it......
im sorry..... and i din do it on purpose.....
sorry and thank you very much.......

i have been a stubborn person.......
i dun like to listen to other ppl's opinions.....
im always so sure abt myself.....
im always looking for excuses when i did something wrong......
im always trying to justify the things i haf done....
maybe to ur......
im not a gd fren either.......
but i really thought tt ur were my very best frens for the past few years.....

when things start to change...... it will never return to its original.......
never ever....
it may change to another form......
but for pem.....
i haf no confidence at all tt it will change for the better.......
i din expect tt i would wan to end pem in such a short time.......
i realize tt frens are brought together by dreams and will end when the dream is gone.....
i always thought tt we would last when we make the effort...........
i was wrong.......
a group will onli last when they move together, and every single of them makes effort.......
every single of them......

if ur realli do wat i said.....
by the time ur read this post......
we had already meet each other on mon le......
i dunno if i will still contact ur.....
but no matter wat.....
ur had been a great frens for the past few years.......
really......
everything had an end......
and i feel tt pem has reached its end le.....
take carez......
pemers......
take carez and stay happy always........ :)

byez........ pemers...........
thx for the gd memories in the past..........................

cute squishie -x

Friday, May 19, 2006

*ying*

hey girls =)
back again.

to tingy:
i hope you feeling better now =)
i missed your place alot alot.
shall find a day to go swim there kays?
hee.
tell us when you're finally moving back!

to all:
have you guys been wondering why will there be an urgent meeting?
do you have any faint idea?
do you sense anything wrong?
do you see any problems?
if you dont,
then i'll be really sad.

we've come through a lot of things.
given each other too much hope
and too many empty promises.
but no matter wat happens,
i wld love you =)
that's one thing that will nv change.

cute squishie -x

Thursday, May 18, 2006

*tingz*

okies.. due to some unforeseen DISASTERS,
urs truly l'il cute princess is movin back on sat.
which she seriously hopes she can.
cos she has an assignment to hand up on mon
n her exams r cominnnnnnnnn!

u all noe la.. if she's to move home,
she'll start meddling wif this n tt,
unpack here n there,
pack pack here n there,
clean clean this n tt..
n yea, studies??!!
soooooooooooooooooooo...

i guess she'll still move back!!!
wahahahahhahahaha!!!
but dont plan so many things yet can???!!!!
dont get her too excited tt she forgets all bout her studies k!
after exam kkkkkkkkkk?
promise. da pool, bbq,karaoke n wateva!!!!
=)

somehow i feel like it's mi gettin u guys excited.
wahahaha;p

cute squishie -x

Sunday, May 14, 2006

*tingy*

i cant tell u guys outta how touched i m by wat these gals will do for mi,
so im lettin u feel it for urself.

[Sy] alone. says:
=)
[Sy] alone. says:
i know wat you're trying to say =)
[Sy] alone. says:
i know you are just asking
[Sy] alone. says:
and if we dun have time, you dun want us to go
[Sy] alone. says:
but,
[Sy] alone. says:
even if i dun have time
[Sy] alone. says:
i will make time
[Sy] alone. says:
becos
[Sy] alone. says:
i want to go
[Sy] alone. says:
even if you dun need us there,
[Sy] alone. says:
i need to be there to know that you r ok
[Sy] alone. says:
so i shall be there =)

-on mother's dae.-

cute squishie -x

Friday, May 12, 2006

im movin back home on da 16th!!!!!
whoopies!!!!!!
3 cheers for CHESTERVaLE!!!
come bunk over again gals!!!!
bring those fun n laughter back to da hse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yayyyYYYYYYY;p

okie.. let's see..
we'll go for a swim?
then prolly bbq?
or juz buy da 'usual' midnite snacks up n crap thru da nite?
karaoke room?
or alrite, i'll sacrifice my nice l'il cosy room n we start doin all da stupid things we can..
wat else... hmmm..
watch vcd, tt's if u guys haf ani...
haiya..anithin.. juz so long as it's in da very much missed hsie!!!!
i miss my rm sooooooooooooooooo blardie much!
i bet u guys too haha;p

but.. haha.. tell u guys sth stupid alrite...
b4 all these much aniticipated stuff can happen,
help move n pack my stuff anione??!!
i bet it's goin to be all of u! top on da list manx!
wahahhahahaha.

cute squishie -x

Thursday, May 04, 2006

well, long entry this will be i suppose. =)

good news first, i pass my exams! yay yay yay yay yay~ no one would ever understand the anxiety in me. passing mark is 80 and that really took my breath away. nearly died in the examination room. nevertheless, efforts paid off.

going for french pedi tml~ yoohoo. so excited. this is good news to me la. lol. firstly cos, i can get rid of the red pontianak nails i've been living by for the past one month (it is not allowed but i really cant take it anymore) and secondly, i get crew discounts! yay! haha. lagi better deal.

facial on sat. i cant take it anymore. i just need to get those white heads out asap. oh yes, this is ALSO good news. lol.

was on the way home with a few mates and while talking, they made me realise more stuffs about relationships. i really love deep talks. one that will send u into deep thoughts, trying to think of ways to make things better. =)

the whole day was a quiet one cos my boy (should be working like siao). busy as it seems, but it feels good when he sends me a sms. for that moment, i knew i was on his mind. =)
it feels BEST when he calls me after ONE LONG DAY AT WORK FOR THE BOTH OF US, trying to disturb me cheekily. feels extra comfy to hear his voice (not when he's angry though) =p oh yes, and i would to give him extra credit for fetching me from work yesterdae. if it wasnt for him, my hands would have gave way carrying those files and notes.
gab's been very nice, but becos im greedy, i hope he would be nicer. LOL. better still if he wish to become the nicest!
the little little things he does, would make me grin from ear to ear. and it doesnt really have to be anything special. it's just the extra effort and thoughts. from the first surprise - door knob message with words " i'm the princess" (but with a hidden msg) to the second surprise - chocolate treats i occassionally get (i love surprises, *hint hint* lol), to driving me to work whenever he can and listening to me (although it may be one ear in, the other ear out. but i do make sense dun i boy? hmmm....) i so hope things will not change, or even if it does, it is to change for the better. =)

~sam

cute squishie -x

Monday, May 01, 2006

somewhere down this line, i know i've just made some of u upset. and im sorry, becos u know ur friend here nv like to put down anyone. but den again, i wonder, if it really does irritate u girls so much so that u think since we're so busy, might as well dun meet. as i try to understand your points, i hope to get as much understanding u can give.

samsamsamsamsam

cute squishie -x

*ying*
pemers darling~!
wahahaha.
i've changed the blogskin, as you can see.
was choosing among loads of others.
but chose this one because of the 5 gummy bears.
and to be funny,
i added our names on top of the bears.
WAHAHAHAHA.
aint it hilarious?!
wahahahaha.

here's another blogskin that i thought we wld all like:

if you all prefer this one, tell me okies~!
will change it when im freeeeeeee :)

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tml's our bday!
well, technically, its today, cos its almost 3am.
but as long as i havent woke up from a refreshing sleep,
our bday will still be tml to me.
wahahahaaha.
cant wait to see everyone of you tml :)
i missed pem~!

*note to self: REMEMBER TO BRING SAM'S BDAY PRESENTS.

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to sammie regarding for last post:
even if i know i did nothing wrong,
i wldnt want anyone to check on me :)
it really is signalling the lack of trust~!
and i think its kinda rude.
wahaha.
i mean, if this person wanna know sth abt me,
why can he/she just ask,
and trust that i will be honest?
checking on me means that this idiot probably thinks i'll lie.
and thats plain RUDE.
hmph.
wahahahahaha.

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okays,
off to bed.
zzzzzzz.
tireddddd~!

cute squishie -x